Who am I?

I used to struggle so much with losing weight and being healthy. I would say, “I just like to eat and I hate to exercise. This is who I am.” Every time I would try to lose weight, I failed. I failed because every moment of healthy eating and exercise was drudgery. I thought I was forcing myself to be someone I wasn’t. When you are trying to force yourself into a box you don’t feel like you fit in, you will either be miserable, or you’ll never be able to keep it up. This is why I always set myself up for failure.

Back in January, when I started this journey, God opened my eyes. Little by little, as I just put my head down and did the work, it wasn’t drudgery any more. It became something I enjoyed doing. I like finding healthy things to eat that taste good. I like working out. I like talking about health and fitness. Months into this process, I have realized THIS is the person I always was deep down. For the first time since I was a kid, I look in the mirror and like who I see….not just on the outside, but on the inside too. I don’t even recognize that lazy, unhealthy girl. The girl I am now is who I was always meant to be, and she’s not going anywhere.

Let’s go to the movies!

Happy Friday everyone! One of my favorite things about going to the movies has always been a big, buttery bucket of popcorn. The more butter, the better. Today, for the first time, my mom and I did not get a bucket of popcorn! We brought our own healthy snacks! It was kind of fun trying to choose what to bring. We chose Chicago Mix popcorn (semi-healthy anyway), apple slices, and Annie’s organic fruit snacks (in lieu of candy). I know they ask you not to bring your own snacks, but they don’t really give you any healthy choices. Popcorn with butter popped in oil, hot dogs, nachos, candy, soft pretzels, and pizza. Those are the options! Maybe one day, they will start offering something healthy. We can hope! What are the snacks you eat at the movies?

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Pickles!

Hello everyone! Just wanted to share a quick tip for a low-point snack idea. I am really loving pickles right now. A lot of people just eat them on a sandwich, but they are a really good snack. You can choose dill pickles if you want something salty, or bread and butter pickles if you want something sweet/sour. You can eat them alone, with cheese or lunchmeat, or on a salad. Just make sure you are careful of the ingredients and any hidden sugar or sodium.

I have recently discovered these:

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They are locally made, which brings me to another point. Whole Foods has a lot of local brands, which you should really check out. Sometimes they are a little more expensive, sometimes not. You can discover a lot of great new things and support local businesses!

I hope everyone is having a great week! I am feeling better…still working out the changes to my diet. I’ll get there! It is a process!

Let me know if you have any low-point snack suggestions!

Everyone’s got one…

One of my best friends and my worst enemies in this whole process has been the Internet. Everyone’s got an opinion. Eat more carbs! Don’t eat so many carbs! More protein! Less protein! Make sure you get enough fiber! It gets a little overwhelming at times. The whole thing is a process, figuring out what works for you. What makes you feel the best, makes your body run the best, makes you your best you. This is a struggle I have been going through lately, and it’s all trial and error. I am still figuring it out, changing my diet again. Don’t worry, I am still on Weight Watchers and the plan still works. I am still losing weight consistently. I am just not feeling at the top of my game energy-wise. This is about carbs/protein/fiber, and how to get enough, but not too much. In the interest of transparency, I just wanted to share this with all of you. Have you experienced the same things on your weight-loss journey? What is working for you?

Momentous Occasion

I had to stop in and share this very exciting moment with all of you. I bought new workout pants today. They are a MEDIUM! I never have worn a medium in my adult life. This was just too exciting, and I couldn’t wait to share it! What is a size or weight milestone you have been excited to accomplish? What is your next goal?

Why am I doing this?

We’ve all got reasons for doing what we do. When I look back at pictures of myself, I wonder why I let myself get so out of control. There were a few reasons, but none make sense.

I liked to eat (all of the wrong things).
I didn’t like to move.
I didn’t know any other way to be.
I had tried and failed so many times, I didn’t think I could do it.

God flipped a switch in my brain this year, and my thinking shifted. Why do I want to change?

I want to be healthy.
I want to be strong.
I want to fit into clothes I like, not whatever will cover me the best.
I want to look in the mirror and like the person I see.
I want to walk into a room and not feel like hiding.
I want to walk up a flight of stairs, or even across a room without getting winded.
I don’t want to face anything I’d like to do and wonder if there is a weight limit.
I don’t want to face anything and think “I can’t.”
I want to live for a long time.
I want to LIVE.

Looking at these two lists, I am seeing a whole lot of reasons to keep pushing and not many reasons to quit. Why do you want to change?

Challenge yourself!

Ever since I was a kid, I have had zero confidence in my athletic ability. School was my strong suit, not sports. The fitness tests in school were always a nightmare. Push-ups, sit-ups, and running…I would always panic, because I knew I would finish last. “I can’t,” was something I said a lot. I never wanted to push myself or try very hard because I knew I would fail.

This year, something changed. The only explanation is God. He caused a shift in me that made me want to try. It is definitely not something I could have done on my own. I started out with something small, and I gradually began to believe in myself. Now I feel stronger than I ever though possible.

So, you had to get the life story to understand why this next part is so important. This month, I have decided to commit to a few challenges. First, I am participating in the Plank a Day (#plankaday) challenge. I will hold a plank position for increasing amounts of time each day. Second, I am participating in the Squat September (#squatsept) challenge. I will be doing squats, with five more added to my total each day. Third, (this is the one I am most excited about) I am going to work on push-ups every day. I will continue working until I can do a real push-up for the first time in my life. Today was day one. I did a push-up on my knees, but it was a push-up! I am just going to keep digging until I accomplish my goal.

We all have our own struggles…things we say we can’t do. I hope you are able to find your own strength to move past them and accomplish your goals. If you are willing to put in the work, you might surprise yourself.

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