Being over a year and over 100 pounds into this journey, one would think I was close to being finished. The truth is, I am just beginning. First, I will give you a little bit of back story. When I was growing up, I was always confident in my academic ability. Athletic ability? Not so much. I said a lot of “I can’t…”and “I’m not…” Deep down, I knew I couldn’t do it, so I just didn’t try very hard. I was too afraid of getting embarrassed in front of everyone, and I knew I would fail anyway, so why bother to try? This of course led to years and years of sedentary life, and…well…you know how that story goes.
Flash forward to last year, when I started this journey. Step by step, I began to believe in myself again. I got stronger, I got more confident, and I felt like I could accomplish so much more than I ever thought possible. Even after all of that, I still caught myself saying “I can’t.”
“I can’t run.” “I’m not a runner.” I would see people running 5Ks, half marathons, or marathons and think, “I wish I could do that.” Several months ago, I tried running, but it was just as difficult as I thought I would be, so I gave up. I still looked at all of those runners and wished I was one of them, but time passed, and I didn’t think about it quite as much. A few weeks ago, I thought about it again. I decided I wanted to do a 5K. “I’ll have to walk it. I can’t run.” Suddenly I realized something. Years and years of saying “I can’t,” was what led me to becoming over 100 pounds overweight. I decided then and there that I would stop saying I couldn’t do things. I would at least try. If I failed, at least I would know that I had given it my best effort. So, I am now on week three of the Couch to 5K program. I ran for three minutes straight at a 5.0 today. When you consider the fact that several months ago, I could barely run for a minute at a time without feeling like I would fall off of the treadmill, I think that’s progress. I am going to do that 5K, and I am going to run at least part of it. I’m not putting pressure on myself, but I’m doing my best. That is definitely the girl I want to be. I like her. I think she’s got potential.