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Who am I?

I used to struggle so much with losing weight and being healthy. I would say, “I just like to eat and I hate to exercise. This is who I am.” Every time I would try to lose weight, I failed. I failed because every moment of healthy eating and exercise was drudgery. I thought I was forcing myself to be someone I wasn’t. When you are trying to force yourself into a box you don’t feel like you fit in, you will either be miserable, or you’ll never be able to keep it up. This is why I always set myself up for failure.

Back in January, when I started this journey, God opened my eyes. Little by little, as I just put my head down and did the work, it wasn’t drudgery any more. It became something I enjoyed doing. I like finding healthy things to eat that taste good. I like working out. I like talking about health and fitness. Months into this process, I have realized THIS is the person I always was deep down. For the first time since I was a kid, I look in the mirror and like who I see….not just on the outside, but on the inside too. I don’t even recognize that lazy, unhealthy girl. The girl I am now is who I was always meant to be, and she’s not going anywhere.

Why am I doing this?

We’ve all got reasons for doing what we do. When I look back at pictures of myself, I wonder why I let myself get so out of control. There were a few reasons, but none make sense.

I liked to eat (all of the wrong things).
I didn’t like to move.
I didn’t know any other way to be.
I had tried and failed so many times, I didn’t think I could do it.

God flipped a switch in my brain this year, and my thinking shifted. Why do I want to change?

I want to be healthy.
I want to be strong.
I want to fit into clothes I like, not whatever will cover me the best.
I want to look in the mirror and like the person I see.
I want to walk into a room and not feel like hiding.
I want to walk up a flight of stairs, or even across a room without getting winded.
I don’t want to face anything I’d like to do and wonder if there is a weight limit.
I don’t want to face anything and think “I can’t.”
I want to live for a long time.
I want to LIVE.

Looking at these two lists, I am seeing a whole lot of reasons to keep pushing and not many reasons to quit. Why do you want to change?

Challenge yourself!

Ever since I was a kid, I have had zero confidence in my athletic ability. School was my strong suit, not sports. The fitness tests in school were always a nightmare. Push-ups, sit-ups, and running…I would always panic, because I knew I would finish last. “I can’t,” was something I said a lot. I never wanted to push myself or try very hard because I knew I would fail.

This year, something changed. The only explanation is God. He caused a shift in me that made me want to try. It is definitely not something I could have done on my own. I started out with something small, and I gradually began to believe in myself. Now I feel stronger than I ever though possible.

So, you had to get the life story to understand why this next part is so important. This month, I have decided to commit to a few challenges. First, I am participating in the Plank a Day (#plankaday) challenge. I will hold a plank position for increasing amounts of time each day. Second, I am participating in the Squat September (#squatsept) challenge. I will be doing squats, with five more added to my total each day. Third, (this is the one I am most excited about) I am going to work on push-ups every day. I will continue working until I can do a real push-up for the first time in my life. Today was day one. I did a push-up on my knees, but it was a push-up! I am just going to keep digging until I accomplish my goal.

We all have our own struggles…things we say we can’t do. I hope you are able to find your own strength to move past them and accomplish your goals. If you are willing to put in the work, you might surprise yourself.

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