I used to struggle so much with losing weight and being healthy. I would say, “I just like to eat and I hate to exercise. This is who I am.” Every time I would try to lose weight, I failed. I failed because every moment of healthy eating and exercise was drudgery. I thought I was forcing myself to be someone I wasn’t. When you are trying to force yourself into a box you don’t feel like you fit in, you will either be miserable, or you’ll never be able to keep it up. This is why I always set myself up for failure.
Back in January, when I started this journey, God opened my eyes. Little by little, as I just put my head down and did the work, it wasn’t drudgery any more. It became something I enjoyed doing. I like finding healthy things to eat that taste good. I like working out. I like talking about health and fitness. Months into this process, I have realized THIS is the person I always was deep down. For the first time since I was a kid, I look in the mirror and like who I see….not just on the outside, but on the inside too. I don’t even recognize that lazy, unhealthy girl. The girl I am now is who I was always meant to be, and she’s not going anywhere.